Prologue (The author speaks)  

 

If you trace my steps

Looking at the master's painting

At the story hidden in the seams

Don't be surprised

 

I was once in love, too

In sudden orchestral swells

And not much younger than you

— I hid my soul there, then

 

If next time you see me

The ground seems to fall under your feet

I wish I could tell you why

But it was another who spoke to me…

 

(Words like spells of love !)

 

And I can’t explain it myself —

How suddenly everything changed

Our fate was told to me

In a moment, in the turn of a key

 

— Did I escape or was I surrounded

By the one I loved, who captured me?

And it seems my grief suspended us

As we were, that day

 

If you should look for my secrets

In all the words I didn’t say

Can you feel as I felt, seeing that sunset

Does the vision tell you why?

 

Search and you'll find — and maybe

Our paths will cross for a time

Like two stars falling

Before dying at last

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Having given their wishes to us...

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Remembrance

 

Dreams of fever, nights of sleeplessness

I saw you walk away —

Not a word of warning, no requiem

Have you forgotten all that was?

 

In the midst of our eternal May

Who was it that was mine,

Who belonged to me?

And who was it that forged my destiny,

The night that became ours?

 

Now the eyes are turned away

From the one who longed to look

Asking them silently:

Who is it that broke my trust?

 

Of the days of glory,

Stop me in my tracks; remind me once

Of the might of love I now suffer from

— Yes, all pain is forgiven in a kiss 

 

And it isn't for me to cast him aside, so easily

Though I hide my grief — this memory

That stole my breath... oh, and still !

Odes are written to what passed between

Two souls that slept  — that no one knows

 

And at night, as a mist

I still search for you —

My words once had the power

To draw you beside me

 

But someone without a soul

Has taken my love away — 

And the tears that were so many,

That burned like blood

Like blood…

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The Wind

 

I remember that smile of mischief

The wind swept a flame into the trees

Your words, they were few —

And the wind grew into a storm

 

Tell me, is it love that you feel?

Or should I be the one to say it first?

If you're trying to challenge me

Let down your arms; you've already won

 

Everything that I have…

Yes, I’ve often heard it said

That still waters run deep

And many are the unspoken woes

 

Tell me, is it love…

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Dawn and night

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The first rays of the morning sun

Crept into our hide, the secret place

 

Somewhere between dawn and night

I held you close to me

And whispered the words

No other has heard

No other has known

 

Except for the moon and stars

Who kept watch of all my thoughts

When I said, bring me back my light

And let me survive the storm

 

Oh, beside the one

Who parts the clouds

And takes me home

 

And my love, part the doors of breath

Before I begin to doubt

This sudden love of mine

— You asleep in my arms

I watch over the night

And over your dreaming

 

Who is to say, are there two of us

Who will find a new day?

Open your eyes now, before I'll drown

And answer me, my longing

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Nightmare

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I don't want to go to sleep

I don't want to close my eyes

And forget you, even for a moment  

Even if it's a torment inside

It's the one that I chose —

The brim of my heart that overflows

Ceaselessly...

 

The violent voice inside my head

Left

And came to visit you

It told you lies

And made you forget

Everything about us

Everything that was good

 

And weeping lashes against my chest

— You aren't here to tell me it isn't true

And I wish that you loved me

But I don't know this "you"

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Wings

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I cannot walk to you

I can only look from afar

The grief of love that became you, somehow

Pointing at my heart

 

Oh, you would say;

“Lift up your wings !

I’ve seen this downtrodden child

A shadow of herself, but maybe

She could still learn how to fly”

 

And now that I see this door is ajar

Are you on the other side?

 

Saying,

"Each path that lands beneath my feet

Is mine to travel !

What is this road crumbling before you

That no one else can see?”

 

I didn’t want you to see me at all  

And now that you have —

I've stared for too long at the sun

And dark moons blind my eyes

 

I can't hide anymore

From the strength that shows my weakness

To you… 

 

Do you understand,

Not everyone is like you?

Do you know the might that reached down

and chose you?

— Say, a rare flower, the rarest of jewels

 

It was in dreams, that I heard

Each word that you spoke

"It hurts now, but you have to grow…

It hurts now, but you have to grow."

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The verge of tears

 

A place, the night’s wandering airs

Take me there

When I miss your warmth, your presence

Like a child without a home

Always searching for somewhere

To relieve me of my sorrow

— The verge of tears,

The last respite

That stays forever

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Oh, do you know…

 

Oh, do you know

You gave me something I thought was

Forever lost

 

Yet you’re so far away

Like tears freezing on their way

To meet the ground

 

And I could never believe

The pain in my heart could cease

But our likeness was told to me

 

Your light that no other has,

— Haven't they seen what I have seen?

(Oh, and still fail to grasp)

 

I lean against this knowing of two realities

As one leaning against a tree

Though storm winds have shaken me

You remain forever still

 

And so many words of love

Have been spoken by many poets of old

Their beauty holds a knife to my heart

— Your words are no different now

 

Oh, do you know

The sadness that clouds my every morning sky

Seeing the life I'll never know?

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Haven’t you given me nothing but joy,

Nothing but thankfulness? 

 

And will I ever tell you so…

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The impermanence of fate

 

Sleep through your fever

Don’t fear, the storm will pass

While weakened by the violent arrows

Finally your feelings will die,

They’ll fade away

 

And even these words

I don’t quite understand

Soon they'll become a dated tongue

And we’ll become strangers again,

Never having faced each other

 

No - I will not be moved as I once was !

If only to spare myself of the pain

Your imagination takes me somewhere

— A place my heart has given up

And set the fields aflame

 

As nothing lasts

And no one stays

The impermanence of fate

Is my only hope

 

If no one remembers

And if everyone forgets

What is it that I strive for

If love has ceased to exist?

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Angels Fly 

 

I don’t want you to see me cry

But love breaks down my defenses

How fast it’s all come to light  —

How long I was still in the darkness

 

I don’t want to stay for too long

Because I can’t return to myself

Without all the answers now…

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The sky has no stars tonight

And the days seem endless

 

With just a smile, I believed

— “Your secrets are safe with me”

And I could tell you anything

Forgetting you’re an angel

 

Who has to fly 

Away…